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By Mogga
Emmanuel Benaih.
A burden that comes with being a South Sudanese, listening to gunshots, bombings seeing your
fellow citizens starving suffering and above all dying. Witnessing piles of
death bodies and vultures in the skies feeding on our fellow brothers and
sisters
As if all
the above is not enough the living are made to stay in fear and live in crowded
IDP camps or go as refugees to neighboring countries………it is worth regretting
to have voted for secession
At first I
was a Sudanese born in exile grew up as a refugee until the CPA was signed in
2005
After the
comprehensive Peace Agreement I became a citizen of the so called new Sudan,
and also southern Sudan
But right
after the referendum that resulted to the separation of the then Southern Sudan
from its northern oppressor I became a proud citizen of South Sudan wuuu!! What
a long walk to freedom
Proud as I
was I joined the rest in the celebration but as time goes it is surely worth
mentioning that those who voted for the separation of south Sudan are truly
feeling the burden caused to them by their vote.
Right from
the 1st day of independence to date am death sure most of the
citizens who stood in the sun for hours to vote for separation have never met
any positive difference caused by the separation and independence they voted
for.
The lack of
improvement in all sectors causes recourse to the former Sudan when it was yet
united it worth regretting to have voted for separation
With all the
expectations laid forward to the south Sudanese people, the prospects put on
the face of the situation at that time it has turned out as a source of
frustration
No basic
services, such as schools medical facilities, roads, etc yet the government officials are been seen
spending federal reserve’s luxuriously for their utmost personal benefits
setting un fruitful trips abroad is the habit of all government officials in
the pretext of acquainting themselves with what is happening in develop world
What have
they brought back after their trips, nothing other than their bellies stocked
with piles of what they accumulated abroad or patting with their fat
allowances?
The cry of
the citizens for basic services has always fallen on deaf ears promises are
kept high but nothing is being done to fulfill such promises, in several incidences
the government reiterated its commitment on development but not much of such
have been achieved yet several billions have been spent in the name of
development.
Donors money
have gone into individual pockets several projects initiated are either
incomplete or sub standard in nature.
Worst of all
is the frequent deaths resulting from armed robbery, cattle raid,
inter-communal fights, and rebellions ranging from the late Renegade George Athor, Oliny Tanginyany, Yau yau,
We who voted
for separation have to admit that we are part of the current massacring of our
fellow brothers and sisters because we brought out through our votes a country
to make people fight in and scramble for power aaah I wish I knew I would have
not done so only to caused the killing of my fellow countrymen. What a
disappointment to us the young generation who thought by voting for separation
the start of peace liberty and equality was inevitable?
I deeply
regret my vote and apologize to the whole world that witness this merciless
killing of civilians by this long time war mongers
Had we to
remain in the previous so call Sudan nothing g of this nature would have taken
place because the idea would have not been there or it would have taken another
angle.
Now this
thousands dying in the hands of this two SPLM sides what will be the end
result.
The world
and rights bodies including the government are calling for accountability will
accountability bring back those who have for no reason been killed?
Will it
bring them back to life, to me the best is to stop the war immediately and
dwell on positive developments
Self
accusations will only breed more conflict, negotiations done and agreed on
table with no stoppage of military offensive is just a waste of time and
resource hence resulting to more disasters
All the
government resources have been diverted to fighting mobilization or preaching
to the whole world that what is happening is as a result of a failed coup
attempt by former Vice president and his allies
The biggest
question is how long are the negotiations in Adis going to take place, what
will be its results and how will it benefit the innocent civilians who are
either congesting in UN camps, seeking refuge in neighboring countries, or
stranded in the bush?
The
negotiations are taking long with not even a peanut agreement being positively
implemented yet the innocent civilians of this country continue to die, suffer,
being displaced and go without basic services
Most of the
government activities have all come on hold most attention is focused on the war,
no basic services, in the most affected areas some of which can’t be accessed
by humanitarian agencies it is not a good experience there for the innocent
civilians who are made to suffer for something with no cause , oh God look at
this enemies of peace who can’t pity the fact that south Sudanese have not
enjoyed peace since 1955.
The
author is a south Sudanese journalist and an activist he can be reached through
mogga4news@gmail.com
